Rebuilding character....

What do you do when you are lying on the bed, trying desperately hard to sleep after an exam-anathon, after a heartening pizza party and after 3 back to back episodes of Woner years and suddenly a tear drop develops on the outer corner of your left eye? .... you think... you think that theres something which is weighing on your mind, something that you didnt want to do but did just to "prove your point" or may be "not to prove any point".

After deleting my last blog or rather last 2 blogs, I felt that I've seen the end of blogging. But there are somethings in life you cant change. Your character is one of them.
Not that I regret deleting my blog ... neither am I firing gun shots to celebrate by bravery for having done so. just that I feel that it is just in my character to blog, as it is in my character to speak, as it is in my character to crib, as it is in my character to be emotional, as it is in my character to question the very usefulness of all the gibberish being thrown at us and as it is in my character to hate coupling and love Wonder Years.

I think I was trying to do something severly "uncharcteristic" by not blogging. And I think I actually did something equally uncharacteristic by stopping to post on my earlier blog and starting a new one. That I deleted both of them is a different story altogether. The second blog (which also stands deleted now) was an attempt a rather humble one though towards more "meaningful" blogging. You know...ppl writing about problems plaging the world, the macroeconomic trends affecting business cycles, Bush bombing Iraq, politicans screwing India and stuff. Some of this attempt can also be attributed to the fact that beiing an MBA makes you feel that it is now your holy duty to enlighten the world about itself. Tonight as that small tear drop developed into a slightly larger one I realised that there'll always be blogger talking about economics, bloggers talking about wars, bloggers talking about politics but that doesnt stop me from talking about what I feel like talking. The very act of trying to talk in other ppl's parlance was well... uncharacteristic.

I think I just over reacted to what other ppl think of me and of course my late blogs. For once this over reaction part is highly characteristic of mine.

In any case without cauisng any further delays, I think I'll get back to work from now on. I've got a good long vaccation coming up when I'll put all the links back and try to put some more "meaningful" links as well this time.

On parting notes, there are ppl who play soccer, there are ppl who do politics, there are ppl who play war craft, there are ppl who read business word and then there are ppl llike me who chose to blog over all these activities.

see you around

stay beautiful

rohit